My Pebble Theory
I came across this picture of pebbles seen below and for some reason it caught my eye. I was waking up in the early hours of the morning and finding myself writing notes on how I relate to this particular picture. I can hear you all saying “It’s only some pebbles” But to me, this picture means so much more than that. Here’s why…
The longer I kept looking at the pebbles, it came to me. It’s a analogy to explain my journey and coming to terms with my Fibromyalgia.
The Round Pebble
The round pebble represents my former self. It is not perfectly round but I was stable. My Dad was poorly but I was coping. Before I had my daughter I was going out every weekend with friends. I was enjoying the path that was set before me. When I had my daughter I was carrying out the normal day to day activities with no struggle. Left each morning the same time to take my daughter to nursery. Went to work, finished work and then I would pick my daughter back up from nursery. I then had tea and went to the gym some evenings. I put my daughter to bed and then later I would follow. This process I repeated each day every day.
The Four Pebbles
I look at these four pebbles and saw four parts to my journey. At first you will notice they are not all round. To me that tells a story in itself. I was becoming more poorly. My self-esteem and self-confidence were being crushed. I was getting weighed down so much with everything. I become flat within myself. Something changed. I was not going to be that same rounded person anymore.
The Bottom Pebble: The Symptoms
I didn’t know then, but I was experiencing all the different symptoms that came along with Fibromyalgia. Tiredness, pain, spasms and sickness are just a few to mention. Questions such as “What was happening?” “Something is not right. Am I going mad?” Were going through my head. Everything seemed as it was going wrong. I was taking some substantial time off work with all the symptoms I was experiencing. This wasn’t like me. I never got ill. I had to get some answers…